illusion of safety

A lot has happened in the past one week. Most, directly or indirectly, would definitely affect me (some would even affect you too). Here’s a little chronology of what the hell happened:

It started with a.. uh… rather disasterous holiday in Langkawi. While it ended up alright, I believe we all think it could be better. But that was over, so I tried to do the next best thing, to calm things down and win a certain person back. But that didn’t work out either lol… so there was the break up. Anyways, then I’ve decided to start working on my music again. You see, I’ve been writing songs for some years, but none is ever recorded (except from the 5 songs demo of Mentol), so I decided to give it a whirl with Reason (it’s a MIDI-like composer but with real recorded sound) and Garageband of a song I made almost a year ago. And it worked out pretty well, I should try to upload it and let you poor people listen to my squeeky vocals hahahahah (of course, after I balance some shit up and get things to be actually listenable!).

Noelle had his family over for a night, and he has such a cool dad, he invited us all for a dinner. Hahah kick ass! SOME PEOPLE WANTED THE STEAK *nudge nudge TUR! nudge* hahaha just kidding man. But we were pretty well fed overall, and I remembered one funny thing when Noelle’s sis thought Malaysia was some cheap ass ghetto village, and she felt sorry for Noelle to study here. Turns out this place isn’t so bad at all.

Uh.. yeah…

Later that night, soem of us (Mac, Noelle, Arthur, and yours truly) went to Coolers and played some billiard, which happened to be one funny shit. Mac started off by boasting he’d kick our collective asses. But HAHAHAH that humongous bugger always lost EXCEPT WHEN HE WAS PAIRED WITH ME! Hahahaah!!! I’m not saying I’m good, but winning 3 out of 3 is…

And then my good friend Al invented the STAGES OF RELATIONSHIP EXPLAINED BY FINGERS hahahahahah!! Seriously, it’s one of the funniest inventions ever, and Noelle and I improved it to perfection LOLXORZ! I’m trying to make a GIF or Flash animation out of it, cus it fucking rules! Stay tuned!

A bunch of us were also thinking what would happen to us after college friendshipwise. Are we gonna drift appart? Are we gonna stay the same? I don’t know, but I remember of the Berkley Mafia in Indonesia, where a bunch a Berkley University educated mofos got together and started business plans and monoplize everything they could get their hands on. Well we’re not exactly thinking of monopoly, cus we all agree it’s not right, but we decided to start some business, nevertheless. A lot of thought was put into it, then we settled on a business that requires little money to set up (50 cent) but some fucking big GUTS and FACE to perform: PORTABLE TOILET. Yes, the crew will be a portable toilet machine by holding a plastic bag under the ass of anyone who wanna take a dump. HAHAHAHAHAH!!!! Hahahahha!!!! We’re currently looking for employees, so if you’re out of job and wanna be in a very rewarding company, call us! We give you 20 cents for every performance HAHAHAHAHAH1!!!!! Hahahahahahahahah!!!!!! Yes that was very graphic hahahaha!!!!

I’ve restarted my morning jogging too. Shit I’m damn outta shape right now.

Then we (FINALLY) had our bboy practice again after a long ass hiatus. It was mad nice, and to top it off we had an argument with the authority! (a small figured female who was alone against me and Noelle, we were brave!) But we kept on practicing until we almost break our bones.

What I have figured out is that how I missed hanging out with my buddies. We did a lot more than that, and it’s been awesome and thoroughly hillarious! Granted, I’m still bummed by the fact that I’m not with the person that I loved anymore. But there’s life. There’s discovery, and rediscovery. I’m finding things out, as I go along, and I really thank everybody for that.

Yesterday, I had my Friday prayer and read the Quran. And there I found a really, really meaningful and really touching verse that I thought I should share with you:

It is not righteousness that ye turn your faces Towards east or West; but it is righteousness- to believe in God and the Last Day, and the Angels, and the Book, and the Messengers; to spend of your substance, out of love for Him, for your kin, for orphans, for the needy, for the wayfarer, for those who ask, and for the ransom of slaves; to be steadfast in prayer, and practice regular charity; to fulfil the contracts which ye have made; and to be firm and patient, in pain (or suffering) and adversity, and throughout all periods of panic. Such are the people of truth, the God-fearing. – Al Baqarah 177

It basically interprets as it is not righteousness by just praying, giving charity, or doing all the other rituals just because they’re rituals and mean nothing more than a series of movements. But rather, you’ve gotta have the compassion, the need, the want, and the actual heart to actually do what you do. That is one unbelievable passage right there… And it really reminded me what I think I’ve kinda lost for some time now. I admit, I haven’t exactly been the best person there is. But I’ll always struggle. Aaaaalways!

And here’s a news that would affect you all:
Saddam would be executed before 6 a.m. Saturday, or 10 p.m. Friday EST.
So by the time you read this, he might be dead already. He’s a messed up mad man, but I don’t believe in capital punishment. What does it mean to you? Rising oil price and more sectarian violence in Iraq which creates regional and (eventually) worldwide instability. It also affects America’s image in the world, and it could also create little Saddams everywhere poised to continue his legacy. So yeah, I’ll write more about this. Stay tuned for part 2!

And Eid al-Adha mubarrak!

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